The Bellows

Beef... It's What's For Dinner

2012-02-10T08:26:00.000-08:00

Last night my lovely sister called me and said,

"what the heck is with all this beef?!"

And I thought,

"Oh Pinterest, why must you show everyone every single pin?!"

How embarrassing.

I pinned like 10 things that just had the simple description of

"Beef"

I then had to explain that on my pin board I had only Chicken recipes...

I only like Chicken

And Shaine likes beef.

So there.

Feel Free to Skip

2012-02-07T09:03:00.000-08:00

Last night something interesting happened. A facebook status was posted concerning a question about Mormons. No one had answered when I checked back a while later so I did.

Then came MANY more questions, other friends of the person that posted had questions too. Some were hard to explain because I didn't want to feel as if I was lecturing or hinting that they should all join. I ran all of the answers by Shaine before I posted, making sure that I was giving a clear and honest answer about my beliefs.

And then came a person who felt the need to post a video from Youtube where it twisted little bits of truth into lies. Lies that hurt my heart because of the information it said we believed. I don't understand why there are so many people who try and shed a bad light on us. I have NEVER spoke ill of any other religion and I never will. I believe that we all have a right to choose what we will believe and I respect others.

It was nice that most of the other commentors were respectful towards me. I was happy to answer questions because I could tell that they were innocent and curious. No one tried to start arguements and I was grateful.

I am so grateful for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.. I believe every bit of it with my whole heart. I do not claim to know everything, but that is where faith comes in and fills the gaps.

Anyways, nothing new going on lately. Very monotonous days of going to work, coming home, eating dinner, running errands, playing games :), and going to sleep. It's a nice routine, but it doesn't leave much to blog about.

The Caves!

2012-01-28T18:42:00.000-08:00

These are some weirdos that I love

I don't like tight spaces very much, but the caves are really fun.

Plus, this kid goes into spots that he can only back out of while he is smushed in between two slabs of rock, he's psycho.

Checking out the nice mud on me!

Shaine shimmying up the cave.

Even though I went everywhere they did my body repels the dirt.

I'm just that hott.

Shaine is pretty hott too.... but somehow after their swimming adventure he attracted more mud.

You can watch the swimming adventure below... at your own risk.

*Disclaimer: I thought all of the lights were off when the boys were taking off their pants, I was just supposed to point and record...

I have it good.

2012-01-26T12:08:00.000-08:00

Why yes, that is my demon kitten whom I love.

Last night I was laying on the floor because I have not been feeling so hot lately.

Lots of headaches and colds, it's winter you know!

Anyways I'm laying there feeling miserable and I look to my left to see little scout doing this.

She was sympathizing with my misery!

Or perhaps, she was mocking it.

Whatever the case I was cracking up for the longest time

and she even held still enough for pictures.

*Here comes the mushy part, skip it if your stomach is weak*

Shaine is THE best husband in the world!

He knew how awful I felt and because of that he:

Brought me home a bouquet of red roses.

Cleaned the house (Including putting away that big basket of clean laundry pictured above)

Made me dinner.

Let me drink an icecream float even though I am sick.

AND he played card games with me for two hours.

(We actually do this every night, I know you might think we are lame, but we are awesome!)

And he let me watch all the TV I wanted.

I really am so spoiled and blessed.

I am so grateful for all of the blessings that Heavenly Father has given me!

Thursday Venting:

2012-01-19T10:19:00.000-08:00

First of all, how am I supposed to blog stalk interesting strangers if they go private? I would feel like a creeper asking for permission to read your blog when we both know I'm pretty much a stalker.

Secondly, Why the heck do I dislike this one girl so much? Every time she comes around I want to punch her in the face and I have no legitimate reason. Ugh, if only I were more tolerant to people I dislike... Oh well, fake it till you make it I guess, it's not like I can get rid of her. Anyone else have problems like this? Because at this point I feel like I'm the only one that is this mean... and I feel like a horrible person for it.

Thirdly, Work is lame. I hope Sherry assigns me lots of files so I quit getting bored and having absolutely nothing to do. Being bored makes me much more tired than being busy.

Fourth-ly? Why am I being so moody today? I don't know, I can claim the fact that I am a woman, but everyone who does that is lame. We all know that is not an excuse.

Fifthly, I want to punch my kitten and tell her that no, the scars from your mean claws will never go away and I will never get back that 30 minutes of extra sleep time you spent cuddling on my face. But don't worry, I still love you.

But I suppose I should end all of this on a happy note, because in reality I am so so blessed.

I have Shaine who is indeed the most perfect husband I could ever wish for. He is so amazing. I have a supportive and loving family. Even though I may not have lots of friends, nor may I be good at making friends, the ones that I have are truly gems. I have a good job that isn't very stressful and that pays the bills. I also do love my kitten and the cuddling she gives me. AND I'm not living in a box, so there, my life is perfect :)

Oh Maturity...

2012-01-10T10:38:00.000-08:00

I have typed up very long blogposts three times since my last post and have deleted them all. This is mostly due to the fact that I was ranting, they were boring or I just second guessed what information I really need to put on cyberspace.

I have never really gotten along with people my own age, I feel like we are too different and most of the time, I struggle to find someone who I feel I can relate to in my age group. I like to hang out with people a few years older than me (like Shaine or my lovely older siblings - don't worry, I like the younger ones too) or REALLY old people. They are oh so wise and I feel like they have extra love to give.

I haven't ever considered myself mature in any way. Since I love a good definition, here is Mature:

1. based on slow careful consideration

2. having completed natural growth and development

3. of or relating to a condition of full development

I find it interesting that none of these definitions include anything about behavior. Especially since most people only use mature to describe a persons personality or being. Lots of people have called me mature and I am not sure that I am...

I mean, really, look at this face!

But I do feel older than most people my age.

This is probably because I am married and have done things that I "should have waited on". But I feel it's right. And I will continue on making decisions that I believe are best for me...

I have decided that I am a full 22 years young in my brain,

How old are you?

The Many New Things I Have Learned This Year

2011-12-31T13:11:00.000-08:00

Most recently I learned how to edit blogger HTML codes.

(This really took some time, but it's nice to edit ANYTHING on my template)

I learned to play the piano better.

I learned that sometimes the small things that annoy you will turn into things that you love.

I learned that you should sing and dance no matter who is watching.

I learned that your hair can NEVER be "too big"

I learned that sometimes children don't know any better, love them, teach them and be patient.

I learned that there is nothing better than having someone love you unconditionally.

I learned more about relationships, how to ruin them and then how to fix them.

I learned that the only friends you are guaranteed to keep forever are your family, I am so lucky to have mine. I couldn't ask for better best friends.

I learned that if you aren't paying attention you might just leave your keys on the outside of the front door, but no one will take them... (haha this happened TWICE! Once by Shaine and once by me. No one came in to "grab us")

I learned that most always the "big situations and problems" aren't really anything to stress about it. Learn and do better next time.

I learned that being baby crazy bugs the junk out of people - I am trying to tone it down okay?

I learned that hugs can fix anything.

I learned that if you are a bad driver (like myself) your Heavenly Father and the Angels he gives you will help you to not die if you do your best.

My New Years Resolution is to do my best and let the rest fall into place, because I know it will. This year has been full of blessings, laughter and love and even through the tough times, we figured it out. I'm so excited for the New Year and the new chance I get to better myself.

Alright guys, I love comments, I REALLY do, so comment what your resolution is and I will love you forever.

The Most Wonderful Time of the Year!

2011-12-29T11:47:00.000-08:00

Yes, there are quite a few photos in this post, but I think they make it all the more fun!

Shaine and I looking good in his santa hats from work, we are so festive.

We did some last minute shopping in these hats and I had to tell Shaine to quit moving due to the super annoying bell on the end of his.

I explained that I love Pinterest right? Well this actually wasn't from Pinterest but it's on there now! This Peppermint White Hot Chocolate recipe was courtesy of Kandee Johnson, I love her.

She has a lot of fun home ideas and she is a fabulous make up artist.

Check her out sometime.

There is a story about these stockings, and I am going to write it out for you:

First of all, Shaine's mom filled stockings for us, so we had to get Shaine a new one.

We found this nice green one but I wanted to personalize it so my wonderful mother helped me sew on letters. I had a little red stocking from my parents house and when I took it over to sew on letters my mom traded me for this awesome fancy one above, Rachael had made it for her, but my mom said that my little red stocking just would not do and made me trade her. The letters are not so apparant on mine but they are there. Thank you Rachael for the BEAUTIFUL stocking.

Shaine made me wait until morning to open my presents, which I personally thought was REALLY lame, I mean, being married means opening presents at midnight, right? I had a really hard time sleeping since I was so excited for Shaine to open his presents. I got a lovely bike, pictured above. We like to try and exercise.

Boys will be boys right? I had to get this game for Shaine as a request from the boys on BOTH sides of the family, everyone kept telling him he needed to get a copy and I just wanted to yell "quit it! it's already under the Christmas tree OKAY?" I'm so glad he is a good husband and doesn't play when I am home, I try to get him to sometimes but he insists that he doesn't want to just leave me alone to do chores and such while he plays a game. I'm so lucky.

Alright, hate on me if you want but I love the glee music. So sue me.

This was just a funny gift for Shaine, he loves monkeys and he has a collection. He saw this at Fry's and got really excited but I pretended not to notice. Little did he know I went back by myself and got it. I got the best looks walking around a grocery store with JUST this monkey.

My new piano, it will take some getting used to, especially since it's not a full set of keys. BUT I love to play and this will keep my fingers nimble. Shaine was so thoughtful to get it for me :)

I think this was one of the best Christmases I've ever had. I love to spend so much time with the family and just be close to everyone.

Now to think of some New Year's resolutions....

Random...

2011-12-20T13:00:00.000-08:00

I blogged about a nail design that I was so excited to try yesterday and somehow my post disappeared? How bizarre! Regardless, it did not turn out and I was pretty distraught. I was pretty excited after all! Shaine says we will have to try with a different newspaper, he knows I'm determined to get this to work.

Today I am counting down! Only THREE days until Cristal comes home and all of my sisters will be in Mesa! HAPPY TIMES! Aaaand only FIVE more days until Christmas!!! Oh goodness I am so excited!!!

I was telling Shaine's mom how I dislike getting gifts, she really didn't understand my anxiety because she finds it VERY romantic to give gifts. However, somewhere along the line I developed this crazy complex that people should NOT give me gifts. It makes me feel uncomfortable and I feel as though they are making too much effort for something for me. I am a simple girl with simple needs and I don't need much to make me happy. It has been hard for me to get used to gifts but FINALLY I think I am getting a little better. I still get very anxious about not knowing what things are and I don't like surprises (I think that this anxiety stems from me having issues with not having a plan or not knowing every detail or something that is going to happen. That's a toughy for me). Which is very difficult since Shaine is the master of surprises! I am slowly getting better about this and it's nice to be making progress.

Do I sound like a psycho yet? I feel like I just summarized my own "Reason for Admission" papers to a hospital. Yikes.

Anyhow, pretty much I'm dang excited for Christmas, I think that the gift giving this year has been way easier to figure out than Christmases past and I feel very stress free! I even got Shaine's stocking stuffers planned out! I can't wait to spend lots of time with my family and to remember my savior as the reason for this Holiday.

Update of my Wonderful Life

2011-12-16T12:20:00.000-08:00

Lately I have been extra blessed, and I mean REALLY blessed, in particular I recently had a new job opportunity! In addition to being a law assistant I am now a short sale processor! Heavenly Father has blessed Shaine and I so much and we will have much more money to save for our house when we move next September! Every file I close I get a bonus and once I am fully trained I will be closing about 10 files a month. I can also do all of this work from home, so eventually, when I decide to have babies I can stay and do this work at any time of day. My heart is full with gratitude for this and all my other blessings. It is really technical work and some of it gets confusing and discouraging but I think once I do a few I will be just fine.

Also, did you know there are only nine more days until Christmas??? I'm so excited. I love this time of year and I love being with my family!

In other news, we got our kitty last Friday! She is a sweetheart and she is also a turd. When I first picked her up she cried for the 20 minute drive and when we got home she ran under the couch and cried some more. Poor thing was just so terrified to be taken away from her mommy and brothers and sisters -she was the first to go-. Thankfully, now she is more comfortable. She will only sleep right between Shaine and I and she is awake and ready to play at 5:00 am. She is really sweet and you can tell by how she always wants to be with us that she does in fact love us and hopefully she will get more cozy and a little more independent.

I am finally learning how to cook new things. I have been recycling the same meals every two weeks, which I don't have a problem with but I'm sure Shaine was feeling the monotony. Above is pictured my most recent adventure in cooking, home made baked taquitos! We tried both corn and flour tortillas and they actually turned out really good! Plus they are super easy which is a big thing for someone like me.

Poor Shainey is sick... I guess we are going to trade off with being ill so we can take care of one another. I am glad we aren't sick together.

Sisters

2011-12-07T13:02:00.000-08:00

Today I feel this overwhelming sense of love for my sisters.

I am thoroughly convinced that my sisters are the most amazing, strong, talented women in the world.

They have a unlimited capacity for love.

They all include each other and reach out if we haven't talked or seen one another.

They are strong enough to overcome any challenge given to them, and with a smile on their face.

They call, text, facebook, or visit me often.

We all share our secrets and know that they will keep them.

They are always encouraging and helpful.

We always have fun together and we have lots of inside jokes.

They give the best hugs in the world.

They will drive over in the middle of the night to wipe away your tears.

They all work harder than any other women that I know.

They are intelligent and talented in so many different areas.

They are patient and kind.

They will listen to your complaining.

They help you with your problems.

They are all selfless and try to help when they are needed.

They forgive and forget easily.

And they are so so so much more than all of that too.

My heart fills with joy that I am blessed with my sisters and the love and friendship that we all have.

I couldn't imagine my life without them.

I also love my brothers, but we all know they wouldn't appreciate my mushy rantings, I'm not even sure that my sisters will hahaha

Also, this is my Christmas tree. Only after we had all of our ornaments on did we realize that we need to get more, the tree is slightly naked, so look on with caution!

I told you it was pretty naked.

It's Christmas Time!

2011-12-06T12:26:00.000-08:00

Today was supposed to be a post of our beautiful real tree,

decked out with lights and ornaments

looking real good in our apartment.

BUT ALAS,

Walmart is lame and we accidentally bought lights that only had a plug on one side.

Tell me this, Walmart, How in the world are we supposed to put lights on our tree when our strands won't plug into each other?!?!

Poo.

But it's coming along

slooowly.

Pictures will be posted tomorrow I hope, I will cross my fingers.

In other Holly jolly wonderful Christmas news,

I have finished all of my shopping for Shaine.
I feel like such an overachiever!

Now just to knock all the exchanges outta the way and it will be easy going.

Also, Christmas time is not good for working.
I cannot focus whatsoever and have been a hobo the past two days.

Does anyone else feel as excited as I do?!

Also, I want you to leave a comment with the best stocking stuffer you ever got... Ready?

GO!

Funny Story of the Week:

2011-11-30T10:00:00.000-08:00

Most of you know that I am a big sleep talker. In fact, when I was younger, I used to scream and sob in my sleep as well, it was not very pleasant for my poor mother who would have to rush to my bedroom, lift me into her arms and rush me to the other end of fthe house so that I would not wake the other children. I have had vivid nightmares ever since I can remember, but they have been better as of late and there have been only a few incidences when I have woken Shaine up with my nonsensical sleep rambling.

The other night, a few days after black friday shopping, I started to hear myself talking. Mind you, I was deep asleep still so I couldn't understand what I was saying, I just knew that my mouth was making noise, then I heard myself say BlackOps.

I covered my mouth with my hand as soon as I was coherent. Shaine woke up to my talking and said "Black Ops?" The damage was done. This was on my list of things to get him for Christmas, I made him sit down and tell me twenty things that he wanted so that I could get him something he really wanted but also surprise him.

It is a sad day when you disclose Christmas surprises in your sleep, it's a good thing that I have a couple of other ideas under my belt. I just have to be careful since Shaine is now plotting to set his alarm clock to 3 o'clock every morning and question me about anything he wants to know.

Adoption?

2011-11-28T14:21:00.000-08:00

Shaine and I have decided to adopt.

She is a couple weeks old and super cute,

Also, I hear she is a playful sweetheart.

Isn't she adorable?

The real story is this:

Last night as I was browsing facebook

(I'll admit I am slightly/extremely addicted, I blame boredom)

I saw that my old choir pianist posted some new pictures.

Of five adorable tiny kittens.

I showed Shaine and asked him if I could have it

(This was halfway joking, I refuse to let him get a dog so me getting a kitten is really unfair)

But he said yes!!!

We get to go get her on December 10th.

I'm so excited because I am going to teach her to be cuddly,

and Shaine will teach her to be a beast like Pinto and Ducky.

Now comes the dilemma of naming this sweet girl :)

Any ideas?

Stats:

2011-11-23T09:46:00.000-08:00

Did you know that I have had 4,798 views of my blog since I got one?

People in these countries have looked at my blog:

United State: 4,227

Iran: 122

Germany: 59

Latvia: 50

South Korea: 43

United Kingdom: 35

Canada: 26

Ukraine: 21

Japan: 18

India: 14

Holy cow right? What the heck is with 122 people in Iran. Stalkers.

I am also proud to say that 89% of the views of my blog were done from a PC.

I'm so proud :)

Most Viewed post? When I got engaged to my sweet sweet husband.

Interesting stuff to know :)

ALSO

I am glad to see a dark green Alaska,

That means my Auntie Brenda loves me!!!

Day 30: A Moment

2011-11-19T10:13:00.000-08:00

I'm never very good at remembering moments.

Even if they are very significant.

Heck I don't even know where I set the dustpan after I put it down 30 seconds ago.

So I will tell you about my lucky day yesterday

(I almost bought a lottery ticket I felt so lucky!)

I logged on to my e-mail

AND

I won a $50 gift card to...

vintagerosewraps.com

Scope it out, they are adorable.

I came upon this blog that gives something away

Every. Single. Day.

Day 29: My Aspirations (Almost done with this!)

2011-11-18T09:02:00.000-08:00

Definition of Aspiration:

1. strong desire, longing, or aim; ambition:

2. a goal or objective desired:

3: act of aspirating; breath.

I breathe every day!

Just kidding guys, my aspirations seem very far off and difficult, even though I know that they really aren't. I aspire to be a Ultrasound tech. First of all, who doesn't like making bank??? They average at 30 bucks an hour. Secondly, how fun would it be to show new mommy's their first look at their baby?! Of course, I know I would also be looking at bursting spleens and appendices and other organs of that area, but lets be real, looking at growing babies all day would be pretty legit. So that brings me to the step below my ambition. My goals... ugh, to start college is really intimidating to me. I need to see if I can qualify for a grant, I need to take off work to test, I need to figure out how I am going to take my classes, I need to do so many things. BUT I know that it won't be that difficult because you only need an ASSOCIATES to be an ultrasound tech. Cool huh? Still, I have to try and get into some online classes in January. I'm thinking of knocking some math out.. that will be the toughy.

Almost done with this 30 day challenge! Then I can go back to posting once a week... or even once a month! First post for after the challenge, my awesomely decorated bedroom. Thanks to my lovely sisters :)

Day 28: Something I Miss

2011-11-17T07:47:00.000-08:00

When you get married, you work all day and then you go home and hang out with your husband. I'm not complaining about this fact, Shaine is my very best friend and I would be content to spend every minute of the day with him. HOWEVER, I miss my ladies. I miss hanging out once a week or at school and singing loud in my car. I miss going out to lunch and teasing them about boys. I miss being the one they would come over to or call when they were feeling down or if they had a problem.

I miss having Fridays off! What a life I had in high school hahaha

I miss playing the piano. I miss dancing until my feet wanted to fall off. I miss being spontaneous with all my plans.

These days feel so monotonous. And believe me, I am still deliriously happy since I have THE most amazing husband in the whole world who makes my life worth living. But I still miss all the little things. :)

Day 27: My Favorite Place

2011-11-16T08:20:00.000-08:00

My favorite place has always been anywhere up north.

I love to camp and roll around in the dirt.

I love to hike in the fresh air

I love how it is always cool

I love how you get to get closer with those you are with since there are no distractions.

I love the beauty of God's creations

I love the smell of the trees and the dirt.

And Disneyland for sure comes in second :)

Day 26: My Fears

2011-11-15T07:41:00.000-08:00

Of course I have all the petty fears

Like cockroaches *cringe*

the dark

A killer coming into my house while I am alone!

And then I have the ones that I don't think are that petty

Like being a bad mother

Failing to teach my children all the things they'll need to know.

Failing as a wife

Shaine dying young (don't laugh at this one, that's legit!)

Being alone.

People disliking me

(and yes I know that many will dislike me along the way, but nonetheless, I still fear their hate)

Being forgotten.

Day 25: A First

2011-11-14T08:23:00.000-08:00

This one will be extra hard since I've had a lot of firsts lately.

I moved for the first time

I got married for the first (and last!) time

I got my car towed for the first time

I got my first full time job

I got my first church callings

(Primary teacher and dance instructor!)

That's all I can think of..

I think these 30 days get more boring as it goes.

Day 24: Something That Makes Me Cry

2011-11-12T18:53:00.001-08:00

Nothing.

I have no tears!!!

mwah hahaha

Day 23: Something That Makes Me Feel Better

2011-11-10T07:48:00.000-08:00

Well, my dad saying I have issues definitely doesn't!

Hahah just kidding! (I know how you love those words daddy!)

What a great post to have after the last one.

It's like a "shut up, stop complaining and feel grateful!"

Children that laugh and smile
Shaine kissing me awake every morning :)
My sisters calling randomly just to chat
A cold Dr. Pepper
My in-laws shoving a mini turkey inside a big one and telling everyone it was pregnant. hahahaha some of the girls refused to eat it until they realized that Turkeys lay eggs.
Shaine's love notes
Flowers
Chocolate milk
Singing at the top of my lungs
Dancing in the rain -and every where else-
Doing myself up to look extra pretty
Getting a new duck
My family and friends in general

Day 22: What Upsets Me

2011-11-09T07:41:00.000-08:00

One time at driving school the instructor said that AZ has the worst drivers in America,

Why you may ask?

Because AZ is a melting pot of bad driving habits from tons of different states.

And just recently I have been getting the worst road rage from people driving dumb,

where did all the common courtesy go?

And if I EVER see one of you merging from the middle lane into traffic,

be prepared to be punched by this girl.

Other things that upset me?

When my tiny apartment is dirty
When I hear people being rude to others
When people swear
My tempermental stomach that likes to constantly feel sick

That's all... I know, I have a long list. I really had to think about those too.

Day 21: Another Moment

2011-11-08T07:47:00.000-08:00

Last night was the scary moment that my calling became real

I got all the information for the dance festival!

That's right, me, having to teach 12 and 13 year olds their dance festival stuff.

It's funny that they called Shaine too,

especially since its just the little girls

doing a 20's flapper dance!

I will dress him up I think...

I think it will be fun, I don't know how many youth we have in our ward

It certainly isn't very many.

Our ward is simply Newlyweds and Nearly deads

With WAY more nearly deads.

But hopefully it will be fun, I don't have to start teaching until March.

Day 20: This Month

2011-11-07T07:48:00.001-08:00

IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE MONTHS!!!

First of all I get 3

Count 'em. 1..2...3!!!!

Days off of work! I am so excited.

Also, it is my favorite Holiday!

Thanksgiving!

It has all the joy of meeting with family except...

I don't feel super broke when it's over like I do at Christmas!

Day 19: Something I Regret

2011-11-07T07:46:00.000-08:00

Yes I know I forgot to write this yesterday, but now that I look at the title it would have been a fitting day to write this one.

I regret many many things, opening my mouth when I shouldn't, saying mean things about others, things I have done wrong -even though these things have made me into who I am today-, but yesterday I regret that I was so grumpy with everyone and that I took it out on poor Shaine.

There was no reason for my grumpiness and I know better than to act that way especially around my sweet husband who will look at me and just assume he did something wrong. He worries a lot and when I give him a reason to be worried he looks over everything he did that day and picks it apart to see what he has done wrong. So I went and crawled in bed like a mean grumpy monster and told him to go out and play games or something beause I knew he wasn't tired, and he did that and when he finally came in he read the whole chapter of scripture that we were on because I was being a grumpy head. Oh I do regret yesterday and I know Shaine will forgive me quickly because he is great and always does, but I guess that is one thing that I will have to work on.

Day 18: My Favorite Birthday

2011-11-05T20:50:00.000-07:00

I have never been a birthday person, I don't like to be center of attention and it makes me uncomfortable when others spend money on me. I just like to meet together and eat cake :) even though I don't even like cake haha.

What I would have to say my 17th was the most memorable.

First I woke up in a hotel that we were at for a young women conference (Time To Blossom), which was awesome, to a call from my daddy singing me happy birthday! Then after my mama picked me up someone drove me out to Cecily's house with Mae where we did facials and made some awesome lotion and gave presents to each other (Our birthdays are all in June)

Then Shaine picked us up and gave me my G.I. Joe that he built for me along with a gorgeous heart bracelet. What a sweetie.

Then we later had an awesome family party.

The end!

Day 17: My Favorite Memory

2011-11-04T08:43:00.000-07:00

This is a hard one, I have a ton so I'm going to name a bunch:

Cristal and I car dancing with creepers signaling their phone numbers to us while we drive on the freeway.
Katt and I laughing in the ocean when she was big and pregnant and we had swam in some cheap tubes past the waves.
Julia and I laughing while we play the piano.
Rachael lovingly teaching me to play the piano.
Pauly and I procrastinating my essay while we read thousands of MLIA's (back when they were about more than ninjas and Harry Potter)
Shaine proposing to me while I was grumpy for being out shooting :)
Dawn and I lifting a Christmas tree with an extension cord laughing so hard it made it more difficult to get it up there.
Adam driving extra fast with me in the car and my hair blowing in the wind (this was a looong time ago.)
Maelani and I reading each others palms in her bath tub.
Chloe and I dangerously dancing with a curling iron while getting ready for suessical.
My mama hugging me while I cried after feeling extra rejected by the youth in my ward.
My daddy saying I love you :)
Ben and I watching early morning cartoons and seeing an Even Stevens episode that started an inside joke.
When Shaine and I first kissed :) it was really romantic.

And last but not least, this morning when I went to my car and found a blank envelope. Hoping it was something crazy like a killers note so I could have a good story, I opened it slowly to build up the suspense.

But it was better than I imagined. It was a sweet love not from my amazing perfect husband. I don't know what I would do without him.

Day 16: My First Kiss

2011-11-03T08:52:00.000-07:00

I knew this would be a weird one to write about, especially since my first kiss was not Shaine.

In fact, he was number 7 :) Lucky number eh? Okay, here we go...

Imagine a little gangly girl who has some low self esteem, all of her friends are gorgeous and boys always flirt with them and they all have boyfriends. But she does not, boys don't take a second glance at her, she feels ugly and has been told so by many rude boys ever since she was young. However, she is happy, she is outgoing and -I have to admit- she is really weird sometimes, and she doesn't see anything wrong with being herself and would never change a thing.

Enter a tall sweet boy who tells her she is beautiful, makes her feel like she is special. He hugs her tight every now and then and becomes one of her close friends. They share secrets and she tells him all of her regrets and dreams and he does the same. He is always kind to her, never makes the rude jokes she has thrown at her since elementary. And then one day he says he wants to kiss her!

The little gangly girl freaks out a little bit, but she doesn't want to seem uncool right? She says she wants to kiss him too but she is really sick, her lips are chapped for heavens sake! But he doesn't care, he just wants to kiss her. So one day after school he gives her a hug goodbye and plants a little innocent kiss right on her lips...

She waits... aren't there supposed to be fireworks? What about my foot, did it pop? Where is the romantic music that is supposed to play???

She had a delirious notion that first kisses were supposed to be the best ones,

and she was wrong.

The best ones are from Mr. Shaine! :)

Have a good day! Especially you Cristal! Happy birthday to my awesome sister who will always car dance, sing duets, and party with me! I can't wait till you come home!

Day 15: My Dreams

2011-11-02T08:48:00.000-07:00

I have never been a girl with wild imaginative dreams. I am too realistic for those I think. If you would have asked me this question five years ago it would have been to be on Broadway and sing for the world!

But not now,

Now my dreams are much more simple, I dream of a little house with a porch swing, maybe even a white picket fence. I dream of a flower garden with the most beautiful things you've ever seen. I dream of having some tiny little angel from heaven growing in my belly, just waiting to come here and meet her new family. I dream of staying at home and caring for my children and being the best wife that I can be. I dream of being adventurous and courageous, instead of shy and fearful. I dream of having children that will love me back, and that will also love the gospel and the standards it teaches.

I dream of a realistic future that will someday come.

Day 14: What You Wore Today:

2011-11-01T08:33:00.000-07:00

Forgive the extra blurry picture... Our REAL camera has lost it's charger.

Oh the joys of moving,

Well, this is my outfit today:

A black pencil skirt from Target (Which I LOVE)

A gray shirt from D.I.

A necklace that was a birthday present

And my black high heels from my mama.

And flat hair, lately I have given up on my big hair.

It fails me every day.

Day 13: This Week

2011-10-31T10:21:00.000-07:00

Well... this week is normal...

I shall go to work everyday from 8:30 - 5:00 all weekdays.

But by Saturday I will be going to the temple,

going to a baby shower,

and watching Dawn's kids.

Exciting week I know.

Day 12: What's In My Bag

2011-10-30T23:37:00.000-07:00

Cranberry pills
A new duck! (THANK YOU SHAINE! even though it isn't the new fuzzy duck. One day..)
Iron pills
Pepper spray
My wallet
A band aid
A pen
Chapstick
Lipstick
Neosporin
Headphones
My Inhaler
My huge set of keys
And birth control (Helps me put my baby cravings as an impossibility)

Sometimes I even have a GIANT bottle of ibuprofen... but sometimes I bust that out when I need them at work and everyone in the office can hear me shaking that thing around, no need to make them think that I am a druggie.

Also, new news of new callings will be coming next Sunday. Be excited! I know I am (while I am also very terrified.

Funny story of the day: Today with my sunbeams (4 and 5 year olds) we had to teach about keeping our bodies pure. We only had two little boys. In the manual it says to read 3 stories. One about alcohol, one about smoking and one about pornography (which we skipped, seriously? they're 4!) Anywho, I asked Timothy (an extra smiley rambunctious one) if smoking was good for our bodies or bad, his reply?
I suggest you sound it out by the way...

"Smoking is bad for ouw... mento... gwoff.

It's a negative... ack chin."

Day 11: My Siblings

2011-10-29T23:29:00.000-07:00

First of all, y'all should be proud that I remembered! I almost blew this post off.

Dawn is the oldest, we have had lots of good bonding time because for a while I was her employee (aka, her voluntary -but graciously paid- cleaning buddy). After spending so much time with Dawn I realized lots about her. First of all, she is a great mommy, she does a TON for her kids. She is extremely stylish and is gorgeous ALWAYS! And mind you I have seen this woman in her hott pajama jeans! She is considerate and sincere. She is a great wife. She is fun. She is a hard worker. And she is an example to all the kids in my family.
I LOVE YOU DAWN STARALITA!
(salsa break soon?)

First of all, why is the only picture of just Rach of a fat man staring at her lower back area? I looked for a half hour of a picture of just her and this is the first one I found that she was not in either a super hott outfit or with someone else -like this creeper in the background. Oh well. Anyways! Rachael is one amazing woman! She is very intelligent and she can figure anything out. She runs her own business (scope it out here) and makes some of the most beautiful things. She is a strong lady. She is hard core. And she is beautiful.
I LOVE YOU RACHAEL!!!

Adam is my homie. He listens to my crazy drama or my complaining always. He is really kind and considerate -even when he says he has no feelings. Adam has a really big heart and does tons for others. He is a good cook. He is handsome and single. (For any of you people that know single ladies hook him up.) He is a really good father and always puts his kids first. He has tons of patience. He is good with his hands. And he has awesome ideas for inventions. One day he will be filthy rich!
I LOVE YOU ADAM!

This picture says a lot about Katt (Side note, you can't be mad about the pictures, aside from Rachael, these were all put by YOU on facebook. So you can't argue that at one point, you thought this picture was HOTT!) Anyways, she is one of the strongest people I know, one time, I even wrote a paper about her. She always knows just how to cheer me up without just distracting from a problem. She is the one that I call when I cry. She is a great mommy and trusts me to borrow her baby. She is honest. She is Gorgeous. She has a big heart and will help others even when she doesn't have much for herself. She is always finding something to be happy about.
I LOVE YOU KATHY!

Cristal is someone with TONS of talents, and not only does she have tons but she excels in every single one. She is a great singer. She is an awesome dancer. She knows how to have fun in any situation. She is outgoing and she is fearless. I am in awe of her most of the time because she is phenomenal. She is one of the most forgiving and loving people that I know. She is a tough girl and she can push past any challenge. She is encouraging to everyone she sees. She looks like a model even after she has just rolled out of bed. The man who scores this girl will be a lucky man indeed!
I LOVE YOU CRISTAL!

Pauly has always been one of my closest siblings, not just because of his age, but we have always confided in each other. When I lived at home he would come home and sit in my bedroom with me and we would just talk about anything and everything. He never judges. He is handsome. He is really perceptive to others feelings. He is REALLY smart. He is talented -although, he should wear a shirt when displaying those talents, tsk tsk for your immodesty big brother! He can always make me laugh. He gives the best hugs. And secretly he is a closet artist. He has tons of talent and he also has a lot of love to give.
I LOVE YOU PAUL!

Ben is probably my most unique sibling. He has tons of quirks that make him very special and loveable. He has a great smile. He has a big heart when he uses it. Mainly when I think of Ben a memory of a crying sister comes to my mind, Ben saw and left for a while, and when he came back he had a soda and just slowly walked in and handed it to her. He is caring and he can do lots of things when he puts his mind to it. He is handsome and when I went to Heritage he had all the ladies.
I LOVE YOU BEN!

Julia is a talented and joyful girl. She is incredibly smart! I believe that she will one day cure cancer. She reads all the time and knows so much information. She is beautiful and she doesn't care what others think of her. She has a beautiful singing voice and is brave enough to share it often. She is adventurous. She is one of the most thoughtful people I know and she used to leave the sweetest notes on my bed that make me cry still. There is seldom a time when she is not smiling and she always brightens my day!
I LOVE YOU JULIA!

Day 10: What I Wore Today

2011-10-28T08:51:00.000-07:00

Awh man!

I really did mean to take a picture today!

Well... I will give you a detailed description from top to bottom.

First I wore my hair in tight little ringlets today

(Teased high this morning, but flat by now),

Regular makeup

(which I wouldn't be wearing if I didn't have to look presentable at work),

I have on that light gray shirt that I wear all the time

(I know you've seen it, the one with the black outlines of roses?)

My long jeans

(blue of course, and not torn!)

And then my black high heels.

I know you wish you had a reason to wear heels everyday!

*Also, I wanted to mention that I am feeling extra baby hungry today...

Good thing Katt is letting me borrow hers tomorrow.
She is a smart baby, and Shaine loves her..
Too bad the funnier video is too large to send from my phone.

Day 9: My Beliefs

2011-10-27T10:01:00.000-07:00

I believe in the savior Jesus Christ.

I believe that he atoned for my sins and that I can repent.

I believe I have a father in heaven who loves me and all his children.

I believe that miracles can be performed in these latter days.

I believe that Joseph Smith restored the gospel to the church.

I believe the bible to be the word of God, and I love to read it.

I believe that The Book of Mormon is ANOTHER testament of Jesus Christ.

I believe that Christ came to the Americas, performed miracles and preached the gospel.

I believe that we have a living prophet today,

(When people think this is a silly thing, they shouldn't, they had prophets in the bible and they have prophets now, it does not make sense that God would not continue to teach us.)

I believe that challenges and hardships are a good thing.

I believe in true love.

I believe in the sanctity of family.

I believe that I can be sealed to my family for ETERNITY.

I also believe that no one is reading this :)

Day 8: A Moment

2011-10-26T08:40:00.000-07:00

I know that these will be the hardest ones for me.

I never feel like there are any SUPER specific moments.

Just combinations that make an experience.

hmmm...

Well, I was re-blog stalking my friend Maelani the other day,

I came along a post that she made after I had had a bad moment.

It was encouraging,

It was loving,

and it brought me from the dark hole that I had fallen into.

A hole I had so desperately crawled out of so many times before.

Again someone had called me that lovely word,

slut.

Who was that boy to assume how I lived my life?

I knew better, I knew I was not that kind of girl.

But deep inside something broke.

The fact that some people can look at me and see one thing,

a nice girl trying her absolute best everyday.

And then others will see something entirely different.

a slut.

I don't know what I would've done without Mae at that moment.

Hers was the love that made me feel like I was worth something,

that reaffirmed my belief that I AM a daughter of my Heavenly Father

and that the perceptions of others did not matter,

as long as I knew that I was doing my best.

That is my moment for today :)

Day 7: My Best Friend

2011-10-25T09:00:00.000-07:00

Okay I would count many as my best friends, especially all of my family.

HOWEVER,

I'm going to write about my NON FAMILY bestie.

And don't be offended, because that would be silly.

Seriously.

Anywho, most of you have met the lovely Chloe Bernice.

But let me tell you a bit about her:

She is secretly a model (see above picture)

She is an AMAZING singer (Click here to see)

Bernice is not really her middle name, she doesn't have one, but I think that it fits!

She is really caring and loving

She looks for the best in people, even when they have done her wrong
She is one of the most beautiful people I know, inside and out.

Sometimes we have dance parties at her moms birthday party

We used to eat in my trunk every day at school

One day we will be a singing duo like the wreckers (except better!)

She berates my bad behavior (like drinking soda)

She is the ONLY friend that I have that talks to me every day without fail

With her I don't have to always start the conversation

She loves to exercise and be health

She also plays the piano and a little guitar

She hates doctors

She has awesome taste in music

She serves others all the time

She is super spiritual and loves her church

She sometimes will condone my hobo behavior (and join in!)

And last but not least, she has a baby kangaroo...

I'm really grateful for this girl, she has helped me out of many ruts and I know she will always be there when I need her. She is always honest with me and will tell me I'm wrong when I am. She helps keep the friendship going which most of my friends do not, I am so used to being the one to have to initiate anything and with Chloe it's about fifty fifty. We go together like two peas in a pod and we are so similar its scary! I love her lots and lots and lots.

And I love the rest of you, ESPECIALLY my awesome family.

Day 6: My Day

2011-10-24T16:09:00.000-07:00

This morning I woke up at 7:00 am, I trudged to the bathroom and started on taming the mess on my head, otherwise known as my hair. After five whole minutes of this, I was too tired to stand and I proceeded to the kitchen and dragged a chair back into the bathroom with me. I finish my hair and makeup, all the while Shaine's several alarms are going off, he doesn't have to leave until later. Then I climb back into bed for some snuggling time (Gross I know!) Then, fifteen short minutes later, I grudgingly get back up, put my high heels on, steal my key from Shaine's key chain (Andee stole mine), and I go get in my car and drive to work...

Once I arrived at work, I sat my little booty down in my lovely office chair. For the next 8 1/2 hours I stared at a computer screen, taking a half hour break for a delicious lunch of leftovers. All the while I am racing to finish my 40 transfers (If I do forty a day, I will finish by December, which means I can register for my ultrisound tech pre requisites next year!). In order to do 40 transfers, I uploaded about 546 documents and I hit the copy and paste combination approximately 848 times. Leaving me with an extra hour at the end of the day to read The Scorpio Races (which so far has been a GREAT book, read it if you get some extra time).

Which brings us to now, I plan to go retrieve my keys and then go home. I'm excited to see what happens when Shaine confronts the office. I told him he should tell the office that they're racist since I was the only backed in car that got penalized for $300 -and we are practically the only white people in our complex- not that he really will because we know its a tenant and not the office. But we will argue that the biased opinions of other tenants should not be able to call on a parking violation, only if we are parked in their designated spot, which we were NOT. If the office wanted to enforce the rules, they have 5 cars sitting backed in in their parking lot now, so why us?

Can you tell we are still bitter?

Day 5: My Definition of Love

2011-10-23T14:45:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, love... well love is many different things:

It's caring about someone more than yourself,

It's comforting your wife even though she gets her car towed for $300,

It's wanting the best for others, even when you get the short end,

It's worrying and watching out for someone,

It's the look in a mothers eyes when she holds a new baby,

It's being patient with your 3 and 4 year old primary kids,

It's being honest and faithful,

It's small reminders of affection,

It's the overwhelming feeling you receive when you see your family, your friends and your children.

Day 4: What I Ate Today

2011-10-22T17:42:00.000-07:00

I think this is one of the most boring days!

Today I've had two bottles of water,

Three of those delicious sugar cookies,

Left over enchiladas and refried beans

(Cause our enchiladas are DELICIOUS!)

Most of that was at 4 o'clock... Cause I was at Avalon beauty school.

ALL DAY

But my friend Aly needed someone to finish her 1st stage on

So I got a lovely facial, a hair color, and a little trim of my bangs!

I'll probably eat some more tonight since we are having a bonfire!

Love,

Your fattie Emilee

Day 3: My Parents

2011-10-21T08:55:00.000-07:00

First of all, my parents are the most fun, most amazing, most dedicated, most loving people in the whole world.
My daddy is one of my idols because:
He is very talented, especially at making up songs.
He is the hardest worker I know.
He takes care of his family always.
He knows how to have fun.
He will quote kid history with me!
He makes the kids smile when the kids are sad,
(and sometimes even sprays a little windex!)
His "I love you"s are the most special.
He is handsome!

My parents are super in love.
I'm so grateful to have their good example of a relationship in my life.
I'm so glad that they have never fought or argued.

First of all my mom is superwoman.
She beats all the boys on her bike.

My mama is who I want to be like when I grow up.
She is completely selfless, there hasn't been a time where I have seen her put herself before others.
She truly loves all of her children regardless of our mistakes.
She is GORGEOUS! (I almost posted her glamour shot, OW OW!)
She has always encouraged me that my best is good enough.
She is way fun, and is always in a cheerful mood.
She is a very hard worker.
She has the most insightful thoughts and always inspires me.

My parents are amazing, last night I got out my envelope of various letter that I have.
I have several from my mom and one from my dad that they were required to write for different things.
Everytime I read those I KNOW that my parents love me.
They are my best friends, my examples, my idols.
Their unconditional love has always been there for me to fall back on.

I LOVE YOU BOTH!!!!!!

Day 2: My First Love

2011-10-20T08:51:00.000-07:00

I believe in many many different kinds of love.

Before I fell in love with Shaine I probably would've told you,

and dramatically I might add,

that I had truly loved every boy that I dated.

Drama Queen I know.

But after I met Shaine, it was entirely different.

I constantly wanted to be with him and my chest ached when I wasn't.

He makes me want to be better in every aspect of life.

I knew that I would not be able to handle it if he left me.

I've also had lots of other loves that weren't people that came before Shaine,

Reading,

Music,

Dancing,

etc.

The list could go on because love is different in so many ways.

But that is all I will write about that.

Day 1: Introduce Yourself with Pictures and Words

2011-10-19T09:38:00.000-07:00

I decided to steal my sisters 30 day challenge. I have so much spare time at work that I'm pretty sure that I can do it! So here it goes, day 1! Above is me as a baby, born in June weighing a whopping 10 POUNDS! I know I'm going to get payback for that when I have my own.

I really miss being on stage, and I wish I could still

be there ever day. I love performing.

More stage time, this had to be my all time favorite
musical. It was the most fun and I even had some
solos... Plus, Cristal was a bird girl too, so we were
twinners.

For anyone who knows me at all they
know that I am a goofy person. I love
to laugh and have fun, I love being silly.

This is my family, they are all very special to me and I know
I can count on any one of them at the drop of the hat. They are
all unique and amazing and there is no way that I could ever
fully express my love for each of them.

I love children, even filthy ones that like to snuggle up. I love their innocence and their unconditional love.
I love to cuddle up with them and read with them. They really do make me so happy.

Thanks to my sister Rachael I developed a LOVE for piano.
I love music.
I love to sing I love to play and every day I miss the old out of
tune piano at my parents house.

Any regular dancing has never been as much of a passion for me
as is ballroom. I am wanting to make Shaine learn because I LOVE
to dance ballroom. It makes me feel beautiful and confident.
I know that I really miss it because if I listen to any song I
start choreographing in my head. Maybe sometime I will get
back to that.

And lastly, September 17, 2011 I married the love of my life!
We are still blissfully happy and maybe in a year or so we
will start a family :)

That's all I have picture wise, and there isn't much more to say about myself.

Above all I love my family and the gospel.
I'm so grateful to have both of them in my life!

Lover or Fighter?

2011-10-17T09:39:00.000-07:00

In the past month of being married I have realized a lot of things about myself.

I have NEVER considered myself a fighter.

Even pety arguements make me cry.

I'm very glad that Shaine is not a fighter either.

We never argue, and I know everyone says "Oh you will, just wait"

But even if we disagree we just talk it out pleasantly.

I have this bad habit of staying quiet when something upsets me.

I will just sit there and let the problem rot inside me.

This makes me especially grateful for Shaine,

He is one of those people that wants to fix a problem

and can tell when I have one.

It's funny how living with someone will make you aware of all the things you do, good or bad. But Shaine and I bring out the best in eachother and I'm glad for that.

Funny side note, like 5 people yesterday asked me if I was pregnant.

I'm not.

Please don't call me fat again! :P

Blog Makeover

2011-10-13T11:55:00.000-07:00

I have decided that with all this boredome at work I should mess with my blog more. Today I changed it from 2 column to 3 column -which is way easy now with the new template designer-. I changed the background. I scanned in one of the many blog banners that I tried to create yesterday, unfortunately the one that I ended up using did not scan as pretty as it looked on paper since I used a pencil. So I had to put it on here, darken my handwriting and then change the borders, which were covered with swirls that did not come through on the scan.

I also stole some sidebar ideas from Katt's Iggys. I like their set up.

Hopefully something eventful will happen soon so that I can post lots of pictures and fun things!

*Also I did make my blog public again since I know there have been issues with it actually showing when I update, plus there is a handy setting that makes it so only blog authors can make comments on your blogs. No more anonymous rude people:) *

** I have also been having issues making comments on any blogs... Supposedly this problem can be fixed by changing the way you have your comment box set up. Someone should try mine and let me know if they can comment now. **

Being Married

2011-10-05T12:57:00.000-07:00

The funny thing about being married is that no one refers to you as a single person.

And I only get asked
"How is married life?" or
"How are you and Shaine"

I'm going to start asking all my single friends:

"How is single life???" I'm sure they would like that.

Of course they should know that married life is good.

Why would I have gotten married if I expected anything but extreme bliss.

HOWEVER

There are many things I love about being married, like:

1. Shaine takes care of me when I'm sick...
which happens more often then I like to admit.

2. We take turns making dinner,
I am learning some new kitchen skills from Shaine.

3. I get to use his diabetes as an excuse to eat the last brownie, after all
"200 is TOO high"

4. I never have to be alone at my ghetto scary apartment.

5. I have more incentive to exercise due to Shaine's diabetes.

6. I never have to go shopping alone because Shaine loves to go.
(even though he takes FOREVER)

7. Shaine helps me with all the chores.

8. We watch movies and be bums every night.

9. Shaine is more baby crazy than I am - this is NOT coming soon btw :P

10. I get to spend every minute not at work with my best friend.

And for Rachael - since I love her- some pictures.

I look forward to having some visitors at my apartment soon
- hint to my interior decorating consultants
who were supposed to come measure for curtains- :)
as well as anyone else.
I warn you that it is 700 sq feet tho...
definitely not suitable for the types of parties our neighbors throw.
They must be magical to fit more than 4 people inside.

LOVE

2011-07-27T21:17:00.000-07:00

Okay so I won't lie
I'm kind of the luckiest girl in the whole world.
And I know half of you will stop reading there,
cause you hate the mushy stuff I write.
But I am lucky.
Shaine is definitely getting the short end of the stick here.
I was having one of my little mood swings yesterday
after some old lady hit my bumper.
In a drive thru of all places!
That's the last time I ever crave chicken nuggets.
Anywho, there was just a small scratch on my car, Lola's, bumper.
But seriously lady, a little apology would have sufficed.
However, she just drove away.
I decided she wasn't worth my time and energy.
But after a long boring day in an office by myself it pushed me further into my sour mood.
So Shaine brought me those.
Such a sweet thing.
He'll have to deal with Emilee's crazy moods every day for the rest of eternity.
I sure scammed him :) :) :)

51 More days!!!
It is dragging on...
Hopefully it'll come faster than I think.

My Love..

2011-07-10T14:55:00.000-07:00

Today, my sincerest and most genuine love is the gospel of Jesus Christ.

I am excited beyond comprehension to go to the temple
and start my eternal family
with a worthy priesthood holder whom I love and adore.

I am so grateful for the blessing that I have to be with my family
forever.

Eternity is an incomprehensible amount of time to me.

But I could not imagine spending it with anyone
other than my amazing family who I am so very blessed to have.

My parents and ALL of my siblings are such a joy to me.

I could never be more grateful for anything else in my life.

I know this gospel is true.
Even though people may mock me or scorn me for my decision to be a Mormon,
A member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

I know without a doubt that it is true.

People keep asking me if I am afraid to be married.

The answer is no.
HOWEVER

I am terrified to be a mother.

I am so scared that I will not be adequate for the children that I bring into this world,

scared that I will not have the patience and love that they will need and deserve.
I am scared to be responsible to educate them with the beliefs that I know to be true.

It is such a scary thing to think about.

The only hope I have through all these fears is
that I can follow the examples of all the great mothers that are around me.

Especially my amazing mother.

I can only hope to be to my children what she has been to me.

My best friend.

In response to the 'white trash' comment.

2011-06-24T15:15:00.000-07:00

Let me first say to you, Mr. Anonymous, that I do not appreciate the fact that you used profane language on my blog, my family and I have high standards whereas you obviously do not.

Yes, I am young, and yes, I am marrying right out of high school.

I am in no way offended with your opinion, just your vulgar language.

I am happy with my decision to get married and I know that it is the right choice for me.

What ever feelings you may have on the subject, I honestly do not care. You felt the need to make it anonymous and that just shows that you are cowardly enough to make a statement and not own up to it.

If your intentions were to hurt my feelings, I promise you, I have been called much worse than 'white trash' and I have enough self esteem to know that I am much more than that.

In response to this incident, I am making my blog private. Just leave a comment on this post with your name and e-mail address and I will make sure that if you would still like to view my blog, you may. :)

Also, Shaine and I took our engagement pictures, here's a sample for my facebook-less sister:

Yes, we are in love and we plan to start our eternal family with a temple marriage in September 2011.

A Memorable Adventure

2011-05-29T14:47:00.000-07:00

As most of you have heard, I got engaged last night!!!

Many have asked for the story, and I'm just going to post it here, I figure it will be easiest for everyone. So last night Shaine asked me to go off roading with him, his sister Britney, his brothers Bryan and Chase and Bryans girlfriend Bethany. I almost made an excuse not to go because I like to ride, but they like to drive up and shoot guns, which is not one of my favorite things. It's just not enjoyable to me at all.
But I said yes regardless, I like to spend time with Shaine and I hardly ever get to see Brit. We drove a long while all the way up to 4 Peaks and Shaine kept saying he wanted to try and drive up several paths which made me a little nervous cause I didn't want to get stuck. But we got to where they wanted to shoot and Brit got out of the truck and Shaine asked me if I wanted to go down one of the trails with him. I reluctantly said yes.
We went down this very narrow rough path and then he pretended to get the truck stuck in a rivet in the road. I was a little frustrated cause generally Shaine knows the limits of where to drive. He got out and I offered to get out too to help but he said he was just gonna check. He got out his tool box and looked at the back tires and then called for me to come back, all the while I'm thinking, "Now Shaine is going to see my lack of strength as we try to push this truck out." I walked around the back and Shaine was kneeling with a little box. This is the ring :)

Then we went back to where we left his siblings and when we got to where Bryans truck was no one was there, but then Bryan appeared out of the brush wearing a sunday shirt and at that point I was getting a little suspicious. He very properly led us to a table they had set up with a nice table cloth, champagne glasses, candles and a bottle of sparkling grape juice in a bucket of ice. The only problem was that it was extremely windy. So our glasses kept spilling all over us and the candles had to be put down and then when they brought desert out (cheesecake with drizzled chocolate and strawberries) everytime I took a bite my hair would in my mouth WITH the cheesecake. It was perfect. :)

8 More Days!!!

2011-05-18T21:07:00.001-07:00

Hope to see you all there!

An Eventful Week

2011-05-08T15:21:00.001-07:00

This is my beautiful mom -and yes, she loves her leather clad glamor shot :)

She is amazing for several reasons, but most recently because she is a great seamstress and always makes me look stunning :). Because she loves all others and serves people constantly.

Because she is a great parent and has been an example to me by loving and living the gospel with all she has. Because she will encourage all of her children to do their best.

It was Shaine's birthday on the fifth, his main present came late, which was a chefs knife:) He seems to like it, he came over yesterday and made us a delicious dinner. A special thanks to Katt and Rachael for making him and his monkey matching aprons, I'm so lucky to have sisters who can make up for my lack of craftiness.

I like to wear an apron to do the dishes, everyone knows I'm not much of a cook, I can just make cinnamon rolls :) But Shaine loves to cook and he says he will do it for me... obviously he's a little scared to have anything that resembles charcoal.

And lastly, we had the ballroom concert. It was good I thought. This will probably be the last time I perform on stage, which is kind of depressing for me but I'll get over it. My dad is editing the video. He really has an awesome talent for it. It was supposed to be a combined thing between the two of us, but... Lets just say that my ideas are really not that good. It might come with practice, we'll see.

I love to ballroom dance, It makes me feel beautiful and graceful. I better teach Shaine, which may take a while since I'm not a very good teacher, but he has to learn so I can keep dancing, even if it is just around the kitchen.

Silly Fishes...

2011-04-29T18:01:00.000-07:00

I got asked to Prom by my "Special Friend" Shaine Cecil. He came over the night before cause I make him watch dancing with the stars with me -I'm trying to spark his interest in learning how!- and he was being all secretive. Lo and behold the car that I currently drive -which will soon be MINE- was decked out with fishes.

I am now a proud mommy of five fishies :) (Excuse my school look, obviously I'm not trying to impress anyone :P)

Anyone have a good way to answer??

Senioritis!

2011-04-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

Oh the joys of near-adulthood!

I'm almost there,

The final stretch!

Wait....

What am I supposed to be doing right now? Two essays!!!

That's right I have SENIORITIS!

It's a horrible disease, nasty really.

With only 37 days left of school now is NOT the time to give up!

I need a cheer leading team to get me through these last couple of weeks!

Anyone up for it?

I have a bedazzled HSM cheer outfit!

I'm gonna keep going!

I'm gonna do this!

I am gonna GRADUATE!

:)

2011-02-14T21:06:00.001-08:00

Guess who got the best gift ever today? Me!

Shaine made this gorgeous jewelry box for me :) He's pretty handy.

I'm a lucky girl.

Best Valentines day ever :)

Long Time, No Post.

2011-02-13T14:21:00.000-08:00

Well, for those of you who DON'T have facebook (*cough cough* Rachael) I was in a modest prom dress fashion show, and it was a ton of fun :) I'm in love with this dress now and my extremely talented mother has offered to duplicate it. The only question is, keep the silver? Or choose another color?

I got the BEST valentine today. This boy in my ward is 20 and autistic and he came up to me today and said, "For you my love! You're my best friend!" He is such a sweetheart, it put a huge smile on my face :D

Katt told me not to post this yet, for fear that Shaine would see my blog before tomorrow.

But I know how much he hates social sites like these, so I'm nearly positive that he doesn't check my blog. Tomorrow for Valentines day, I decided to channel my craftiness -which is really having Katt and Chloe come over and do all my work for me- and make him a story book. I pretty much stole the idea from my dad. As most of you know, he always writes us candy sentences. This is how it turned out. It's a flip book and this is just one of the ten pages.

ATTENTION:

2010-11-23T19:16:00.000-08:00

For those of you who just LOOOVE coming to my amazing school functions.

Here's one for ya:

Yep! Cristal did this with EAC last year, and now Heritage is doing it! And it's gonna be a fun, energetic, entertaining show... and not just for kids :)

It's $3 for students and $5 for adults.

You can buy tickets from me, or at the school.

SOOO...

You should come, its going to be fabulous. Especially the Bird Girls!

Hope to see you there.

D.C. with the besties.

2010-10-21T22:13:00.000-07:00

So this past week I went to D.C. with my school. It was amazing and so fun! We went Monticello, Mt. Vernon, Valley Forge, the white house, The Vietnam memorial and so much more. The pictures will pretty much explain it all... :) Just wanted to share.

Oh and update on life, I no longer work at papa k's, I work as EMPLOYEE NUMBER ONE! (yes, if I work hard enough, I can be employee of the month EVERY month) for dawn, I'm so excited and so blessed to have the opportunity!
And Seussical is soon, first week in december! so tell me if you want tickets, and what night, its the first wed.-sat. in december with 7pm showings all those nights with a matinee on saturday, come, it will be so fun!

The Sweet Life

2010-08-30T19:22:00.000-07:00

So... I'll keep this short, two great things happened in the past week or so...

1ST:

I got my very first paycheck :) :) $$$$$$$ CHACHING!

And 2ND! I got my license! Watch out AZ drivers!

First Day Of School

2010-08-13T09:48:00.000-07:00

So... this picture was actually taken the SECOND day of school, but I figure it was close enough. I'm actually pretty scared for my senior year, I have some classes that I'm worried about because I really want a 4.0 this year and it makes it even tougher now that I have a job. Which is not my favorite at the moment. Sometimes night crew is... interesting... anywho, back to school I have all but one class with my best friend Maelani, which is great, hopefully she doesn't get tired of me.

Now for the bad news, due to work complications, I don't think I'm trying out for Suessical. There, I said it to someone other than only my mother. It won't work out since I'm already taking a week off for a school trip. My heart is broken.

But a job is more important to me right now, It's nice to have money, I wanna be able to pay insurance and gas when I start driving.

Anywho, that's been my week. Hope you enjoyed reading my randomness!

Making Pizza

2010-08-07T14:02:00.000-07:00

My bestie Maelani came over the other day, and since my loving parents are both working days, I decided to make dinner and drag Mae into helping :) We decided to make pizza, and after watching several movies, we started. I had never actually made it with the recipe I used, so I was kinda nervous about how that was gonna turn out. I was needing to redeem myself from some chicken noodle soup that, described by my brother, was really salty. So pizza was my next try. While making it, I decided that Mae and I should havr a cooking show, because we are just that awesome :)

As always, we had no makeup, and i was still in my PJs

And while waiting for the second batch of dough, we had to dance around the kitchen a bit.

I love this girl, she is my best friend for so many reasons, she will stand behind me on anything, she can always cheer me up, she helps me be a better person, she will be absolutely insane with me, she will swoon over cute boys with me, and mostly she is always there for me!

Many of you may wonder...

2010-07-28T16:46:00.001-07:00

What I do on my days off, which is almost every day this week. Let me tell you... I like being busy, but I really do enjoy sleeping in and having nothing to do with myself all day... So what does Miss Emilee Ruth do all day? I'm not sure if you wanna hear... you might be dissapointed...

I EAT BON BONS AND WATCH TV!

Okay just kidding... I do chores for my amazing mom...

Or rather... I sing into the broom while pretending to clean.

*Note: Yes, I am in my pajamas.... with no makeup... and crazy hair :)

I also facebook stalk...

And finally.... I pull a Julia and read all day. Unfortunately.... none of those pictures were any good.

Anywho, now that everyone has been dazzled by my extremely uneventful summer, I will mention that it might not be as uneventful as it seems, I go on dates from time to time with perfect gentleman and I hang out with my sisters that live close (*cough cough* except Cristal cause she left me.) Just thought I'd give an update. :)

New!

2010-07-14T19:22:00.000-07:00

Since my hairstylist has moved away, I tried to cut my bangs. LOL well... lets just say, i cut them too short to be side-swept... So... Katt suggested that I cut them straight across... they really aren't my style, but I think they're ok :) Just thought I'd show the world.Pictured above: My "pretty face"
Or this one could be my pretty face too :D

Cooking for Ballroom Blitz

2010-05-21T09:54:00.000-07:00

Unfortunately, I have no actual videos or pictures of the ballroom blitz.... Cause I danced practically every song and loved it! It was amazing
Anywho, Maelani and I had to make some snacks and offer a prize type thing, so we made two batches of cinnamon rolls, regular size for a prize and mini ones for the food table :)

And Mae and I got covered in flour :)
Cause that's just what best friends do to each other,
Cover their clothes in messy food :)

So So Busy

2010-05-15T12:07:00.000-07:00

I had to do a slideshow for these pictures because there were too many that I loved.
I promised Rachael that I would put up the pictures that I had from Shaine's birthday when Paul and I massacred his jeep, so thats why that random picture is in there.
The rest are from Prom. It was a blast and my group was really fun. My mom made my dress, and as you can see, she did a FANTASTIC job :)

Lets see who wins!

2010-04-11T15:19:00.000-07:00

So we had a comment at the show the other day, about the cheerleaders legs :P
I'm not gonna say what it is, because there's no need to make people jealous! lol.
Anywho,
here's the challenge, guess which ones are mine,
and which ones you thought the person said were the best...
If you know, don't cheat!

Legs: 1.....2.....3.....4.....5

Go ahead and guess!

Happy day :)

2010-03-02T21:02:00.000-08:00

Among all the frustration I'm dealing with right now because of such stupid people who don't really understand much and have no desire to, It's been a rough week already, and its only Tuesday.
HOWEVER
Someone decided to bring me sunflowers today,
Because they knew I was having a hard week.
And because he is very, extremely sweet.
And probably too nice to me, because now my expectations for any boy are very high,
and my head is very big :)
My mom says he needs to go on a mission soon,
which would be great.
Cause as everyone knows,
GUYS ARE DOUBLY BETTER AFTER THEY GO ON A MISSION.
:)
That's all I had to blog about without venting about silly, teenage issues.
Which really should be unimportant on the grand scale of things.
But sometimes I forget how trivial it really is.
Just gotta keep my head on straight. :)

This is what happens...

2010-02-14T07:51:00.000-08:00

when you put five girls together, with 250 or so hearts, chocolate, and a maniacal plan to
completely trash a boys room for valentines day :)

From left to right: Kimberly, Me, Denise, Maelani, and Capri

What love is...

2010-01-15T08:47:00.000-08:00

Last night, I was reading something by Deiter F. Uchtdorf. He is one of my all-time FAVORITE people. As I was reading I discovered what love is and I thought I would share that,
"Love is the guiding light that illuminates the disciple's path and fills our daily walk with life, meaning, and wonder. Love is the measure of faith, the inspiration for our obedience and the true altitude of our discipleship. Love is the way of the disciple."
I thought this was a great description, Not only about God -Which Uchtdorf was talking about- But about everything, Love is the thing that offers hope in difficult times, its the thing that holds families and friends together through times of hardships.
I've been learning a lot of things lately, sometimes things don't go according to plan, sometimes you can't fix everything, no matter how hard you try, sometimes people are cruel and sometimes people tear your hopes apart. But there are always the people that love you to fall back on. I am so grateful for those people around me who fight to keep it together, the people who ALWAYS stick around no matter what you do, even though it may be hard.

Christmas Time!

2009-12-29T15:08:00.001-08:00

Disneyland was a blast... lots of walking, we went to the beach the next day. I adore the ocean... I love hanging out with my family and just getting away. Thank you for taking me Mom and Dad! If you wanna see pictures visit: mikestribe.blogspot.com It's a happy site. :)

That's all I wanted to post... Don't wanna bore you with venting of my problems or telling endlessly of my uneventful life... Love you and hope everyone is good and safe

Finally Finished!!!

2009-11-20T15:21:00.000-08:00

I just finished my new favorite book last night. Yes, it was a hard read. Yes, it took a couple months. Yes, It was discouraging at times.
But it was so worth it.

It was my first time reading this book. I already knew the gist of it.
I had read bits and pieces, but I'd never finished.
And I finally did it last night :)

Do you want a book with tons of family drama?
Maybe a little heartache here and there? Pure evil?
Pure good? Miracles? Seemingly endless wars?
A little Romance here and there?
Do you want a book that contains events that really happened?
That testifies of Christ and his amazing works?

I finally finished the Book of Mormon last night, the key stone of my religion,
and I have a sure testimony of this book.
The pure joy that I have in reading of my savior and his life.
It goes straight along with all the teachings of the bible.
It adds to the magic and amazement that I already have from the Bible.
I know that my savior lives,
That he died for us,
That he is with us every step of this journey,
and
That he loves me.

10 Things I Love About My Dad

2009-11-13T08:20:00.000-08:00

He sings to me almost every morning, beautiful, amazing, extremely thought out songs :)
He gives some of the best hugs!
When I say "I love you" to him and he says "I know" It means more than an "I love you too" because I know it's not an automatic response and that he's actually listening.
He's a very hard worker and does so much for me.
He tells me "Your way better than a back up dancer" and makes me feel like I can do anything.
He denies all the funny stories or songs he tells us kids, but we still have all the good memories.
He is one of the best cooks in the world!
If I need something done he goes out of his way to do it.
He gives me blessings whenever I ask.
He is the best dad in the whole world and I love him so so so much!

Sweetest Boy Ever?

2009-10-30T17:26:00.000-07:00

Well I think so..
My friend knows I've been having a rough time lately...
So Wednesday morning I wake up to these:

Turns out he had asked me when I generally fall asleep... I tell him 11 pm..
He drives to my house at 12:30 am so that when Paul walks outside at 6 am he yells inside, There are flowers on the porch...
Pretty much made me the happiest person :)

Sweetest boy ever? I know so :)

Missing him...

2009-10-26T17:55:00.000-07:00

On days like today I miss one of my best friends. I know I haven't suffered as much as a loss of others, but still. I actually picked up the phone to call him yesterday cause I was feeling down... I used to do that cause he was always so cheery. And then I hung up cause I remembered he wouldn't be there to talk to me, to make me feel better, to be my best friend.
Things haven't been going according to plan at all lately. I'm being stupid and not thinking things through... I'm having issues with school. I know that he would've been here to help me with that. To help me with school. To talk to me. To encourage me.

On days like this, I really miss my best friend, my grandpa...

Liberty Tour!

2009-10-18T09:49:00.000-07:00

This is going to be a super long post... so if your not much of a reader I would suggest that you skip all my random writing and scroll down to the pictures, they're pretty much self explanatory.
First of all, many of you know that I wanted to be a flight attendant, this was my first plane ride, and it was the make or break point on my carreer choice. Good news. I loooove flying :).
We went to a ton of places. First stop was Boston, we got there at night so we went up to a sky walk in this huge building and took tons of pictures, we ate, and we went to the hotel, where me and my roommates got minimal amounts of sleep. (which became the routine for EVERY night)
The next day we woke up bright and early and went down the freedom trail... and let me just mention here that I have been kind of sick for two weeks. It was FREEZING, and since its so hot here I had a light coat. So It was pretty torturous, but worth it. It was really fun and I learned a lot. Then we went to "Old Ironsides". The navy boys there were really nice and funny... and cute. Then we had dinner at a delicious Italian place. Then the hotel... and minimal amounts of sleep.
The next morning, we packed up, and left for Plymouth. All of us fell asleep whenever we sat down, and sometimes even standing up. But it was really fun with all the people who were role playing. We went to the Mayflower and the beach and had a blast there. We then departed for New York. Long bus ride, lots of sleep :). We went to the Empire State Building, rode to the top, and unfortunately, all my pictures were very blurry.
Thursday we went to Ellis Island and the Statue of Liberty. I didn't know that the Statue of Liberty was so small. Whenever she is in movies she looks HUGE but I suppose thats all due to camera angles. It was very rainy that day so I tried to stay inside gift shops or historical buildings all day because I was sooo cold. We went to Manhatttan and took a tour of the Downtown area. Then we went to dinner at Juniors. And left for Wicked. It really was amazing, and a lot of the people in our group flipped out about it for the following two days.
We went down fifth avenue the next morning, I went with my friend Michael instead of with my roommates because I'm not really much of a shopper, and I don't find extreme pleasure in looking at over priced objects that I really have no desire for. Anyways, it was really really fun and then we went to dinner and to times square. We didn't sleep at all that night. I curled four girls hair throughout the night.
We walked through Central Park the last day, and the Metropolitan museum... too many nude statues for my taste... Thats pretty much the gist of my whole week :) Lots of info I know... Hope you weren't too bored. :)

My Baby's back!!!!!

2009-09-27T17:40:00.000-07:00

Cristal was nice enough to let me off the ransom for the mean time, because I was unprepared yesterday and a stressed out wreck without my lucky duck.... (If you have no idea what I'm talking about... scope out dancingtolifessong.blogspot.com) He is now bathed -multiple times mind you- from Alex's kisses. And is tucked safely in his bed for a nap for now

(Lucky duck does NOT float... just so you know :D)

Anyways... Lucky duck got home in time to help me pop many balloons to see who a mysterious boy was asking me to homecoming... Fun stuff right?? Here's a picture of the solved puzzle... I don't have pictures of the actual popping of balloons, sorry, but I had just woken up from a LOVELY Sunday nap.

I need a good way to say yes to him... creative like... you know...
If you have any good ideas leave a comment... right down there :)

Why I love My Mother

2009-09-14T20:44:00.001-07:00

- She loves unconditionally and fully.
- She supports all her children's decisions, right or wrong.
- She stands up for everything she believes in, even when it isn't popular.
- She has an amazing love for the church.
- She is beautiful inside and out.
- She thinks the best of everyone.
- She cheers me on when I feel unbearably weak.
- She's there for me when I cry
- She loves me :)

These are only a few of the countless reasons... She is one of my heroes. And I know that everyone says their parents are their heroes but I'm serious... She is who I emulate, she is who I long to become like, and she is the kind of person I want to be someday. I love her, and even though I make countless mistakes that may hurt her, She always loves me and I know that.

I'm so grateful for her, and her testimony as it helps build and strengthen mine...

So thanks mama, you're amazing, I love you, and I couldn't ask for a better mother and friend.

Hello Blogging Community!

2009-08-11T13:49:00.000-07:00

Today I was in the car with my mom and my "Mother I want a Blog" Speech started and went as follows:

"Mother I don't know if you've realized, but I am sixteen years of age. And as I am sixteen I feel that I need a creative outlet to share my thoughts with the world. I feel that when I post all my fun experiences on your blog I make it turn into the 'Emilee Show' And it is no longer for all of the family... So can I have a blog???"

She obviously said yes because here I am! You should expect several posts from me, because sometimes I am extremely bored and I might just log on to post nonsense!